The host stand was trimmed with fairy lights and a tiny enamel American flag pin that winked every time the sommelier turned his shoulder. Sinatra hummed from hidden speakers, “Fly Me to the Moon” floating above the buzz of conversations, and outside the tall windows, late-afternoon sun washed the Napa Valley vines in gold. My father’s seventieth birthday banner—stars, stripes, and glitter—hung a little crooked over the stone fireplace, like even it was leaning toward my sister.
Sophia sat next to me in her pink sneakers, feet swinging a few inches above the polished floor, eyes tracking every tray that came out of the kitchen.
When a waiter passed with a plate of surf and turf, butter hissing on the hot iron, her whole face lit up. My mother noticed.
Karen always noticed when it came to Megan’s wants and my daughter’s hopes. “You should’ve brought food from home,” she said to me out of the corner of her mouth, her voice sugar over glass.
Then, louder, for the table, she tapped the wicker basket in the center.
“There’s bread right here, sweetheart. You can snack on that.”
Sophia’s shoulders drooped. She pulled the basket closer and peeled off a piece of roll like it might bite back.
The bread basket sat there between the wine glasses and tasting menus like a reminder of my place: crumbs were enough for my child.
Seconds later, the same waiter reappeared, all polished smile and perfectly folded towel, and set down a $120 surf and turf in front of Megan, then a $250 tomahawk steak in front of her husband, Ryan. My mother’s face softened with pride, eyes shining like this was the coronation of her favorite daughter.
“Nothing but the best for my birthday girl,” she said, even though it wasn’t Megan’s birthday. It was my father’s, but you wouldn’t have known it from the way she was looking at her.
I watched Sophia watching the steaks.
I felt that familiar pressure in my chest—the one that said, Just let it go, Jess. Don’t make a scene. Take the bread, say thank you, pick up the pieces later.
Instead, another thought rose up, clear and sharp enough to cut through seventy years of family habit: You are not going to let your daughter grow up thinking this is all she deserves.
“All right,” I said quietly, more to myself than to anyone else. When the waiter came back to refill water glasses, I stood up.
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