The Architecture of Erasure
I learned how to shrink the way some people learn to breathe. It wasn’t a conscious decision made over coffee one morning. There was no single, dramatic moment where I looked in the mirror and said, “I will become smaller starting today.” Instead, it was a slow, agonizing erosion—five years of marriage to Leonardo “Leo” Sterling-Aguilar sanding me down until I fit neatly into the cracks of his gilded, terrifyingly perfect life.
Speak softer. Ask for less. Smile on cue.
Don’t ruin the brand. Don’t embarrass the firm. Don’t take up oxygen in a room that Leo already owned.
We lived in a sprawling colonial estate in Greenwich, Connecticut—a fortress of limestone and ivy where the lawns were manicured more often than the residents. To the elite of the Gold Coast, I was the “Bookstore Girl,” the quaint little charity case Leo had rescued from a dusty shop in Soho. They saw a modern fairytale; I saw a high-security cage.
Leo didn’t hit me. Not with his hands. That would have been too messy, too liable to leave marks that could be photographed.
He hit me with tone. He hit me with silence. He hit me with the way he could look right through me at a dinner party, as if I were a piece of inherited furniture he had long ago outgrown but was too polite to throw in the trash.
I remember the day I signed the first document. It was three months into our marriage. We were in his study, a room that smelled of aged leather and ungodly amounts of money.
The walls were lined with law books he’d never read and first editions he’d never opened—props in the theater of success. He slid a thick stack of papers across the mahogany desk, the sound crisp and final. “What is this?” I asked, reaching for my reading glasses.
Leo laughed—a soft, patronizing sound that felt like a pat on the head. He took the glasses from my hand and set them aside, as if they were toys I was too young to play with. “Just standard restructuring for the estate, baby,” he said, flashing that smile—the one that had melted my knees when he first walked into my bookstore wearing a cashmere coat and carrying a first edition of Gabriel García Márquez like it was the most natural thing in the world.
“It protects you. In case something happens to me, I want to make sure the firm can’t touch our personal assets. It’s for your safety.”
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