I ignored the little box under our Christmas tree for years. My husband said it was just a memory from his first love, but memories don’t haunt you like that. Last Christmas, something inside me snapped.
I opened the gift and found a secret that changed everything. I met Tyler when I was 32 and he was 35. It sounds cliché, but it felt like fate.
Our connection was fast and electric, like when you step outside just as the first snowfall starts. Everything was magic, glittering, and impossibly perfect. He made me laugh with his dry humor, and I admired his quiet confidence.
He was never brash and never postured. Tyler was just steady and certain, a safe harbor in a storm. At least, that’s what I thought.
I later realized his calm demeanor wasn’t confidence; it was cowardice. Our first Christmas together was everything I’d dreamed of. Candles flickered, soft music played, and snow dusted the windows.
We took turns unwrapping gifts, leaving ribbons and bows scattered across the floor. Then I saw it. One gift remained under the Christmas tree: a small, neatly wrapped box with a slightly flattened bow.
“Oh?” I said, tilting my head toward it. “Is that also for me?”
Tyler glanced up from the sweater I’d just given him and shook his head. “Nah, that’s… that’s something from my first love.
She gave it to me before we broke up.” He shrugged like it was nothing. “Each year, I place it under the tree, though I’ve never opened it.”
I blinked. “What?”
He didn’t even look up.
Just folded the sweater over his lap. “It’s not a big deal. It’s just a memory of someone who once meant a lot to me.”
I felt a prickle at the back of my neck.
“Why didn’t you open it?”
“We broke up soon afterward, and I didn’t feel like opening it,” he said, and that was that. The moment passed, or at least he thought it did. But I remember sitting there, my smile feeling too tight on my face.
A little red flag waved somewhere in the distance of my mind, but I told myself it was fine. People hold on to weird things. Old love letters.
Ticket stubs. Nobody’s perfect, right? The years rolled on, and we built a life together.
Tyler and I got married and bought a little starter home. We had two kids together who filled the rooms with shrieks of joy and toddler tears. We were happy.
Or busy, which sometimes feels the same. Christmases came and went like clockwork. I’d put up the tree while Tyler wrangled the lights.
The kids would argue over which ornaments went where, and every year, without fail, that little box appeared under the tree. I asked him about it again around year seven of our marriage. “Why do you still have that old gift?” I’d said, dusting pine needles off the floor.
“You’ve had it longer than you’ve had me.”
He looked up from untangling the lights, brow furrowed like I’d just asked him to solve world peace. “It’s just a box, Nicole. It’s not hurting anyone.
Leave it be.”
I could’ve argued. I wanted to, but I didn’t. Back then, I still believed that peace was more important than answers.
I still believed in us. Time slipped through our fingers. Christmases came and went.
The kids grew up and left for college. They called less and less and skipped spending holidays with the folks more often. The house was quieter than I expected.
It’s funny how you never realize how much noise you’ll miss. But that box? It never missed a year.
Every December, I’d watch it appear like a ghost. Tyler would place it in a spot where it was out of the way, but still clearly visible. It still had the same stupid paper, as smooth as the day his first love wrapped it.
I didn’t say anything anymore. I’d just see it, feel my chest tighten, and keep moving. But something had shifted.
The box wasn’t just a box anymore. It was everything we never said to each other. It was his silence on the nights I lay awake, wondering if he’d ever loved me as much as her.
One night, after putting away dinner leftovers, I stood in the kitchen, hands on my hips, staring at the ceiling like it owed me an answer. Tyler still hadn’t washed the dishes like he’d said he would, and hadn’t taken the trash out either. Instead, he was upstairs, tapping away on his laptop while I held everything together, like always.
I’d committed years of my life to this man and our family, and I was tired of always having to fight with him and remind him about chores. I looked around our kitchen and my heart ached for something I couldn’t name. I sighed, dried my hands on a dishrag, and made my way to the living room.
The Christmas tree lights twinkled softly, casting everything in a warm, golden glow. It should’ve been peaceful. But then I saw that darn box.
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