When I got sent back to the city where my wife and I met, I thought the hardest part would be walking past the places that felt like ours. I was wrong. The hardest part was seeing one familiar face in the wrong place at the wrong time and realizing my past wasn’t what I thought it was.
Seven years ago, I lost everything in a single phone call.
My wife, Claire, was eight months pregnant with our first child, a boy we had already named Noah. She was driving to her parents’ house for her mother’s birthday while I stayed behind to finish an emergency plumbing job that had turned into a flooded basement and one panicked landlord.
Those were the last words I ever heard from her.
Before she left, she kissed me, rested my hand on her belly, and laughed.
“Do not let him arrive before I get back.”
An hour later, a state trooper called.
There had been a pileup on the interstate.
I drove there so fast I barely remember the road. By the time I arrived, the highway looked like the end of something permanent.
A trooper put a hand on my chest when I moved toward it.
Three cars had burned. One was crushed into the median. Claire’s purse, phone, and coat had been recovered near a body already covered with a black bag. The burns were bad enough that the officers were relying on belongings and family confirmation until dental records could catch up.
“Do not look,” he said. “You do not want that in your head.”
Claire’s father was there too. I remember that now. I remember him gripping my shoulder and saying Claire would not want me seeing her like that.
That decision haunted me for years.
I listened.
The coffin was closed. They told me it was mercy. I believed them because the alternative would have required strength I did not have. By the time I signed release forms and funeral paperwork, I was not reading. I was surviving.
The nursery stayed exactly as we had left it. Blue curtains. A thrift-store rocking chair Claire loved. Tiny socks folded in the top drawer. I stood in that room until sunrise more nights than I can count.
Last week, my boss sent me to the city where Claire and I had met in college.
After the funeral, I chose work because it looked less like dying than drinking did.
Twelve-hour days became fourteen. Weekends disappeared. I took the calls nobody else wanted. I never dated. I never even tried. Every woman I met reminded me of the family I was supposed to have.
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