That sent me reeling. James wasn’t just in this for the money; he depended on it. In his emails, I found conversations with friends mentioning gambling debts and maxed-out credit cards.
My mom had essentially bailed him out in exchange for his cooperation. I barely held it together. Every time James touched me, I flinched.
Every time my mom called, I bit back the urge to scream. The betrayal stung in ways I hadn’t anticipated, shaking my self-worth to the core. Did my mom think I was unlovable?
Did James ever care about me at all? Was it all just a performance? I debated confronting them privately but then decided against it.
“No, Claire,” I told myself. “Don’t give them the satisfaction of something private and respectful. They deserve worse.”
A public confrontation would hold them accountable, preventing them from gaslighting me or spinning the narrative in their favor.
Christmas Eve arrived, and my mom hosted the usual family dinner. Her house sparkled with holiday cheer—from the twinkling lights to the tray of cinnamon eggnog to the carols playing softly in the background. James and I arrived early, carrying gifts.
One of them, carefully wrapped and tied with a bow, held the evidence and damning truth. The evening unfolded like any other Christmas Eve dinner. My mom’s smile was as fake as the plastic mistletoe hanging in the doorway.
James played the doting husband, serving me from the platters of food, his arm constantly around me like nothing had changed. But inside? I was shaking.
When dessert was served, I stood, holding my “gift.”
“Before we get into the sweet treats,” I said, forcing my voice to remain steady, “I want to give Mom something special.”
Her face lit up, her eyes sparkling with anticipation. “Oh, honey pie,” she exclaimed, “you didn’t have to! You being here and being all happy and healthy is the only gift I needed.”
“Oh, no,” I said.
“You definitely deserve this one, Mom.”
I handed her the box and smiled. She tore into the wrapping paper, her smile faltering as she got through the box’s seal, uncovering the contents. A stack of papers.
Her confusion quickly turned to panic as she read the top page. “Do you want to read it aloud, Mom?” I asked sweetly. “Or should I?”
The room fell silent.
“I… I don’t understand. What is this?” she asked. “It’s a record of every payment you made to James,” I said, my voice cutting through the tension like a knife.
“For marrying me.”
Gasps rippled around the table. James’ fork clattered to his plate. “Claire, I can explain,” he began to say while my mom spoke, too.
“Honey, I don’t know who told you what, but…”
I raised my hand. “Save it. Both of you,” I said.
My mom spoke first, despite my words, her face was ghostly pale. “Darling, I did it for you!” she said quietly. “I didn’t want you to be alone.
After your father cheated on me when you were a child, I’ve had to live with being alone. It’s difficult and lonely. And you’re… sickly, Claire.
I did it for you, honey.”
“You didn’t do it for me!” I shot back, my voice trembling with anger. “You did it because you think I’m not good enough to find someone on my own. Isn’t that right?
It’s because you wanted control, isn’t it? Well, congratulations, Mom. You bought me a husband.
And you’ve both lost me.”
James tried to interject, but I turned on him, fire in my veins. “And as for you,” I said, “my goodness. I hope the money was worth it.
Because you’re not getting anything from me. Not another cent. My mother can continue being your bank for all I care.
But this marriage is definitely over.”
With that, I grabbed my coat and walked out, leaving them to choke on the ruins of their lies. It’s been a few months since that night. I filed for divorce early in the new year because it had been a nightmare to get any lawyers to work on it as soon as possible.
James didn’t contest it. He probably knew fighting it would expose the payments, or bribes, or whatever you’d call it. I’ve barely spoken to my mom.
She’s tried to apologize, sending tearful texts and emails, but I’m not ready to forgive her. Maybe I never will. Healing has been slow, especially because the stress of the situation had led me to eat things I wasn’t supposed to, causing my blood sugar levels to skyrocket, sending me straight to the hospital for a week.
But since then, I’ve been going to therapy, which has helped me unpack the hurt and rebuild my self-esteem. I’ve also reconnected with old friends who’ve reminded me of my worth. I may not know what the future holds, but for the first time in years, I feel free.
And that’s worth more than all the money in the world. What would you have done? Source: amomama
