Some memories never really leave you, no matter how many years pass or how many holidays come and go. I thought I’d learned to live with mine until one family celebration changed the story I’d been telling myself my entire life.
The sun sat low over the fence line, the way it always did on the Fourth of July. I was setting out paper plates on the picnic table, weighing them down with mason jars so the breeze wouldn’t send them sailing into my mom Diane’s rose bushes.
I was 62 years old and still felt safest when I had a small task in my hands.
Mom sat in the folding chair beside me, her knees wrapped in the light quilt she now carried everywhere.
I had a small task in my hands.
“You don’t have to fuss, honey,” she said. “Let the grandkids do it.”
“Those ‘kids’ are in their 40s,” I said, smiling. “And they’re busy blowing up the driveway.”
My kids, Rachel and Tom, were crouched by the curb with some of the little children. A paper bag of small fireworks lay beside them.
My daughter caught my eye and waved. Her brother didn’t look up, already lighting another snake firework.
“Those ‘kids’ are in their 40s.”
Over by the grill, my brother, Mark, held court in his red apron, flipping burgers with the same swagger he’d had at 16. My older brother could work a crowd like a game show host. He always could.
“Laura,” he called. “Come get one before our cousins eat everything.”
“In a minute,” I said.
He grinned that grin of his.
“Suit yourself, basket baby. More for the rest of us.”
“Come get one.”
A few relatives chuckled on cue. They always did because Mark made everything sound harmless, even the cruel things.
I kept stacking napkins.
At my age, I still felt like the little girl standing outside the screen door in her nightgown, listening to laughter I wasn’t part of, wondering why I was the only one nobody defended.
Mark made everything sound harmless.
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Mark had joked about my parentage since we were kids.
“Laura’s the one Mom found in a basket,” he’d say, or, “Don’t get too comfortable, sis. We’re still waiting for your real family to pick you up.”
Mom’s hand landed on my wrist, feather-light.
“Mark, please,” she murmured, loud enough for him to hear.
“We’re still waiting for your real family.”
“He never hears you,” I said.
“He never did,” she agreed.
I glanced at her. Her eyes were on the grass, the way they got when Mark started up.
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